- me: hey i just met you
- me: and this is crazy
- me: but i own all your albums and have your posters on my wall and a blog dedicated to you and i cry over your face daily
- me: so call me maybe
As soon as I posted that last post, my roommate walked in crying. And saw me crying. Instead of telling me what was wrong, she walked over and asked me what was wrong.
Which resulted in us staying up until 3am bawling our eyes out together and holding each other.
Turns out, we’re kind of going through the same thing. While I’m scared to leave my life in Cape, she’s scared to move here permanently. Neither of us wants change, to leave our comfortable lives, but that’s where God is leading us.
It’s crazy how God works. But, I’m SO thankful for it.
It’s all hitting me. Just now. This is my last week at Semo, in Cape, at Lynwood.
In two weeks I’m starting a new school. Where I don’t have any friends, nowhere to live, no one.
Why am I doing this to myself?! I’m absolutely terrified. I don’t want to look at anymore apartments or houses. I don’t want to find a new church. Or make new friends.
I want to stay here. Why can’t SEMO be a good nursing school?
I’m terrified that I’m making the wrong choice.
I’m leaving some of my best friends, a great job, and an amazing church. That’s not just a church, but my family down here.
I think I’m making the wrong decision.