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October 2011

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Talks with The Grandmother.

So I’m at my grandparents’ house in Mississippi for my sister’s baby shower tomorrow and I just got done with a 3 hour talk with my grandmama about everything. Her life, my cousins, my dad growing up, my half sister. The amount of weight lifted off my shoulders is immense, and I fee terrible for blaming her for all these years. I’ve always blamed her for the way my dad is, for his temper, lack of affection, everything wrong with him. I blamed her for loving my aunt more than my dad. Its just crazy to get to hear the ‘other side’. I feel like I understand this family so much more now.

Well, I guess I should actually go to bed now. I’m super tired, but this house is pretty creepy so…

Oct 29, 2011
To My Future Wife:

tomyfuturespouse:

Sometimes I really wish you’d hurry up and come along. And I’m sure that you feel the same way too sometimes. But I know that it will happen when the time is right, and both of us are ready. So until then, I pray that God will continue to mold me into the man that I need to be for you, and I pray that God is doing the same for you. I cannot wait to one day meet you and begin the rest of our lives together.

 <3

Oct 24, 2011241 notes
I'm learning that the things that don't go exactly as planned, are the best.

The trip to Indianapolis was fantastic to say the least. One of the best friends did go (Emma, you’re the best. Seriously) and our old classmate Curtis (who was also getting his American degree) came with us.

To say I was stressed out this past week is an understatement. Thursday night I was getting extremely anxious, not knowing if I was even going to go at all.And then it all came together within like 2 hours. And we left the next morning. Everything ended up working out, and we all had a great time.

Between this and my unexpected St.Louis adventure last week, my faith in spontaneous adventures has been fully restored. And then some. I love planning and being organized, but the past few weeks have hardly went “according to plan” and I’ve made some pretty amazing memories from it, and had a couple of nights that I will never forgot.

Feeling blessed. And exhausted :)

Oct 22, 201111 notes
#indianapolis #FFA #American Degree #Life Lessons
Oct 21, 201151,200 notes
So much communication!

Figuring out trip to Indy

Making it better

Getting exciting

One of the best friends maybe coming? Awesome!

Two of the best friends maybe coming? UNTHINKABLE, INCREDIBLY FANTASTIC!!

Maybe coming though. Maybe. Make it happen kids.

Oct 20, 2011
Ugh. People.

Friday morning I’m supposed to be leaving out to go to FFA National Convention to get my American Degree. I know, FFA, weird farmin’ high school kids. Whatev. Nationals is in Indianapolis, which is like 5 and half hours from where I live. But, the girl who was going with me (went to high school together, etc) has been backing out. Every. Step. Of. The. Way. It has been SO frustrating. I booked the hotel a couple months in advance to make her commit and lock in. And she has been.
Until last night.
She texted me a 2 texts telling me how “her throat hurts”, “she’s sick”, etc. etc. Oh, and how she’s not going now. I know, she could be really, terribly sick. But, she did say that she went to a doctor, is on antibiotics, vitamins, and other medicines for the side effects, etc. So backing out Tuesday is quite early, she could feel better in a couple of hours!
I called her tonight, and it’s the same thing. She sounded alright, but told me to call her tomorrow. Which is super frustrating because that means I can’t even begin to plan this trip at all. You know, a 350 mile trip across the Midwest. The big thing is because I have to meet her in St.Louis, which adds 2 hours to the drive. Which is alright if she’s going.

Main point: I’m stressing because I might be traveling alone and can’t begin to plan a weekend long trip that is in less than two days. Ughhh

Oct 19, 20119 notes
#frustrated #FFA #Indianapolis #Pissy people
Hair Adventure Post October 2011

I haven’t seen my natural hair color since Freshmen year of highschool. Which was like, 2007. I’m a natural brunette but loovvve playing around with color.

After a few color mishaps I ended up and stayed with black hair for the past two years. Which is really long for me.

Example:

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Another problem with black: when my natural brown roots came in, my hair looked greasy and greyish. And the last time I re-dyed it, my hair turned black with a blue hint. Eeek. Oh, and you can’t dye over black. Huuuggge problem.

So this past Saturday, my sister and I went to her hairdresser friend Marjorie’s to take me to red.

When your hair is as dark as mine was, you have to strip it, bleach it, THEN dye it your desired color. A process that took roughly 6 hours. That’s right: 6. Hours. At least there was a Jersey Shore marathon on.

After stripping it, my hair turned a light brown with white roots. Which was enough to scare me away from black dye forever.  After the stripping came the bleaching. And let me tell you something; I love my hair. And was very good at keeping it in wonderfully healthy condition.
So after the bleaching I was ready to cry.

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I mean, just look at how dry and ratty!! Ugh. I could’ve killed myself. And I wanted to go blonde?! SO over that idea.

Next step: Dying it.
Before she would do my hair, Marjorie asked for a picture of the color I wanted. I sent a picture of Ashlee Simpson. I LOVED her red, it was super bright and bold, but not orange. Perfect.
And this was the result:
 

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I know, the lighting sucks and you can’t really see it.
However. I liked the color. It was soooo bright. Very bright and light. Too light. I like the highlights and lowlights she left in. She did an AWESOME job, but it wasn’t exactly what I wanted. Which happens a lot with hair color.
See the problem?

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It made me look waayy too pale and my eyebrows too dark. I didn’t feel comfortable with it. My mom said I looked like a pumpkin, and one of my best friends Kyle (who HATES red hair and tried to talk me out of it) simply said “…It’s different”.
And like many girls, I like to feel pretty. And I did NOT with this color.

Next step: Stop at Sally’s Beauty Supply. Marjorie gave me the two colors for when I touched up my roots. So after consulting with the Most Wonderful Sales Associate of the World, I bought the new color. Stayed with the same red, and dropped the copper down a couple shades.
It even looked pretty before it was in my hair!

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Yeah I mixed hair color in my cereal bowl with a spatula. What of it?

And this was the FINAL result of the FINAL process!

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AHHH THE PERFECT COLOR!!!!!! Again with the weird lighting in my room. I’m not that pale?
Still, THAT COLOR. Ohmygosh. I’m in love with it.

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Guh. I looove it. So happy. It should be like this for a while. 4 processes, a combined 7 hours, and help from two wonderfully hair-telligent women, I’m at my desired color :)

Oct 19, 2011
#hair #hair adventures #red hair #black hair
Hurr

Bahaha orange didn’t even last a week. I re-dyed it last night. I’ll post the full adventure later. I looovvve the color it is now.

Oct 18, 2011
#hair #hair adventures
REALLY.: Sarah and Brendon's engagement. → reducethesigns.tumblr.com

reducethesigns:

I’ve been seeing a lot of negativity surrounding it since it was announced and it heightened when the picture of the ring was posted.

Personally, I don’t really mind it.

I’m not a fan of Sarah but I don’t hate her, either. But from what I’ve seen of her, I’m not a fan. I don’t like how she’s…

 My EXACT feelings. Exactly.

Oct 18, 20112 notes
Remember Me: tinycracks: -jazzhands: charlesfrancisxavier: standupfuckingtall:... → yourpastself.tumblr.com

tinycracks:

-jazzhands:

charlesfrancisxavier:

standupfuckingtall:

-takethisheartofmine:

http://www.tiffany.com/Engagement/Item.aspx?GroupSKU=GRP10060#f+0/0/0/0/0/0

this is sarah’s ring?

if brendon bought sarah a tiffany ring

i might

have to

die.

omfg that looks…

 Honestly, that’s not that much. It’s an absolutely gorgeous ring. But the “rule” is that the ring is supposed to be equal to 3 months of his income. Which I would guess Brendon makes a lot more than $4,000 a month? I have no idea. And the average engagement ring is about $5-6,000 in 2011. Still, it’s an extremely beautiful ring. I’m just sayin’

Oct 18, 201177 notes
So I dyed my hair today..

And that’s the biggest understatement of my life. I spent 6 hours in my sister’s friend’s house and had my hair stripped, bleached, and re-dyed. I’m surprised it hasn’t fallen out yet. Going from black to red is a lot harder than you think. I’ll probably be darkening it this week.

I wanted like Ashlee Simpson red and it’s kind of Hayley Williams red-orange. Which will be fun for the week. One week. One. Probably less.

I like the concept of crazy, bold, bright color, but I like feeling pretty better. So back to darker I will go. I’ll post more with pictures and more details.

Oct 16, 2011
#hair #red hair

winds0ck:

you know what’s sad

this time next week I should be watching a new Saw sequel

but there isn’t one

because it’s over

that

is

so

terrible

Oct 15, 2011
Oct 9, 2011605 notes
Oct 9, 2011573 notes
#brendon urie #panic! at the disco #panic at the disco
Scaring Myself.

So a couple of confessions. Things I’ve lived with and never admitted to. You know, you live with something your entire life, aware it’s not necessarily “normal” but don’t worry about it.

I pick. I pick at my skin on my fingers when I’m nervous, anxious, or stressed. It’s really bad on my left index finger. Mostly everyone around me knows about it, and they’re always quick to point out how gross it looks. When people first notice, I usually tell them “it’s a burn” or something else. It’s something I just don’t think about. Something I want to stop, but never think about or when to go through with it.

Well I decided to earlier this week. And the wave of anxiety that rushed over me when I decided this scares me. I decided in Statistics on Tuesday, and as soon as I thought about it, I felt terrified. And everytime I got the urge to pick, the anxiety and fear got worse. And of course I “caved” and went for it.

The reason I decided to quit all of a sudden? Last weekend, my sister came down for Family Weekend at my university and we went shopping. I pick continuously, so bleeding is pretty common. However, on Saturday it wouldn’t stop. Like just about dripping. I had my finger pressed to my jeans for like, 45 minutes or more before it stopped bleeding.

It’s not like I’m scared of “something serious” happening, I just feel like I want more control over my own life. I have enough problems with the way I look, I don’t need another unnattractive feature. It’s just another thing I don’t want to be chained down by.

What’s really bugging me is why I do it. Like, the underlying psychological stress causing me to do it. I have no idea. And I started it around..5th grade? Nothing too dramatic or tragic happened there. Hmm.

Oct 6, 2011
#picking #anxiety
Oct 3, 2011648 notes
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